I’ve longed so long to post here. I lacked a concrete statement, so finally, I have come with what I do have.
The title says it all- I consider today my status as an “artist,” whatever that means. It’s been on my mind so long, and I’ve finally found my answer.
Luckily, I become less starving everyday lately. Whereas I was opperating my little printing projects at considerable cost to myself for a long time, I came to the point of completely breaking even lately, which is huge for me, considering I never could bring myself to take myself seriously and the fact that I indeed do so much printing. I can say today, however, that I now see my opperating costs many times over. That is, I actually make considerable profit off my art.
What should this mean to me? I don’t think that feeling validated as an actual artist, not just a kid who sometimes produces juvenile visions, is quite letting it get to my head. Perhaps I’m wrong. But there’s something about seeing a person’s interest in what I’ve done that goes so far beyond being able to feel good about what I’ve done in the presence of myself. It feels like a contribution to God’s creation, which is all the fulfillment one could ever ask for.
The truth is, I’ve felt this way about my poetry for a good long time. Perhaps it was the first time I saw my work in print that I wasn’t responisble for, or maybe the second, but the validation there has helped me go further with my capabilities and do things with words I was always too timid to attempt before. Finally, I am there as a visual artist. Perhaps music shall be next 
Anyhow, in conclusion, I think I’ve found what I always needed for the last 20 years, which is such an uncanny feeling. That is, I feel content to be who I am. It’s funny that now is the time that I realize that I could and should have always felt this way, and I don’t need anybody to tell me that i’m good at what I do. But it happened in the end, and that’s all I could ask.
This reminds me, I need to update my artwork page!
More later, much love
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